Since leaving academia, I didn't want to spend all my time at the lab anymore. So I don't work outside of work; even for emails. The only drawback is that I try and get all my work done at work (even if it takes 16 hours/day). So now I have weekends and holidays free, plus my average schedule isn't as bad as when in grad school. I even take vacations now. Gasp! And I find myself looking for stuff to do. I have plenty of hobbies, but I got used to doing them at such weird times and intervals that even after years of being outside of academia I find myself looking for stuff to do. I go exploring in my city a lot, started writing a blog, dedicate more time to family and friends, play music, etc, but I still sometimes just find myself sitting around thinking of what to do. I've been able to finish more books, but I can only read so much before getting tired.
I always thought I could retire and never be hurting to find things to do because I could never find time for hobbies. But here I am trying to fill out my free time....albeit, this happens in the minority of my time. I don't want to go back to my OW life, because gray hairs do not match my outfits. This is, of course, only during the lulls. When things are blazing at work I find myself longing for hobby-time, when there's a lull I seek things to do. During these times I've picked up video gaming, Netflix binges, hanging out outdoors just thinking, napping, and reading books and scientific articles. I wish there was a safe medium, where I had just the right amount of time for hobbies, while never feeling like I have to try to find things to do.
This has become less of an issue the more I'm out of grad school, but I'm certain this is because when I first started working I had a lot more free time; as I get more responsibility I have less and less free time. But I can't seem to remember any transitions when I had the perfect amount of free time. I'm guessing it's around 50 hours/week working and maybe 20 hours/week for standard tasks (showering, cooking, cleaning, errands, etc). But I don't think that's correct. Maybe that's the beauty of working for yourself: you know exactly how much free time you need and how successful you want your business to be. As long as in not an OW or a BW, I'll be happy. Who says I can't be left or right leaning...just hanging out in the middle.
Maybe I'll pick up a drug habit. That's what the media tells me teens do when they're bored, right?
It could be worse. You could be one of those BWs with no job, and too much time on your hands! :)
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